Zac Brewer manages the delicate balance between making the point of view of a teenager with suicidal ideation empathetic and accessible without glorifying her emotional crisis in Madness. When Brooke is released from her recovery center after a suicide attempt, she struggles with reestablishing relationships and routines with family, friends, and schoolmates, even her BFF, Duckie. At first, new arrival Derek seems to be Brooke’s soulmate, the only person who understands what she’s feeling – but is their budding romance helpful or harmful, especially as it begins to isolate Brooke from other people she loves? Part Pretty in Pink and more than a little Heathers for teens in the 21st Century, the book also offers resources for any readers identifying with Brooke’s pain.— From Nifty Novels and More from Maryelizabeth
New York Times bestselling author Zac Brewer delivers his most honest and gripping novel yet, about a girl who believes she’s beyond saving—until she realizes the only person who can save her is herself.
Brooke Danvers is pretending to be fine. She’s gotten so good at pretending that they’re letting her leave inpatient therapy. Now she just has to fake it long enough for her parents and teachers to let their guard down. This time, when she's ready to end her life, there won’t be anyone around to stop her.
Then Brooke meets Derek. Derek is the only person who really gets what Brooke is going through, because he’s going through it too. As they start spending more time together, Brooke suddenly finds herself having something to look forward to every day and maybe even happiness.
But when Derek’s feelings for her intensify, Brooke is forced to accept that the same relationship that is bringing out the best in her might be bringing out the worst in Derek—and that Derek at his worst could be capable of real darkness.